Wanna Be Award 2012 - winners

10th November I wrote in my lifestory book (read blog) that I will honor all the best moments in my life on a year 2012. So it is December and almost anything can´t rock my world so much (I am in Tallinn for Christmas and there is always something going down or coming up)... So here are the winners ! (Are you lost - scroll back to my past posts -  10th November and then you know )

WANNA-BE AWARDS 2012

THE GOLDEN W

The Winners are:

 

*Most memorable vacation trip

New York- I thought I will never go there, but now I just wanna spend every my vacation there. Loved everything from the moment I land and saw big Ikea. All the people I met, place I visited and fun I had... Thank you to my dear friend Reimo for being there for me during that trip !!!

 

*Best celebrity moment

Landon Conrad, Carmen Kass, Lady Bunny and Amanda Lepore - they are all talented in their job. Just meeting with them all was a great honor. And by the end of the day , they are humans like us, just with more talent. Lots of luck for them in the future.

 

*Best red carpet moment

Rebecca Kontus album party - this lady is so talented. It was amazing show with a very good catering. I was dressed up and had amazing date. The venue - Fabulous, performance - breath-taking. Lots of friends were there, a nice goodie-bag. Wine tasted delicious.

*Best disco

Underwear party (Amsterdam) -  I like new things and fun experiences. This one takes the crown in this... My non-perfect six pack, skin white as snow - so I should be a "perfect match" to go disco to that event.. Thanks God I had my AussieBum underwear with me

*Good pillow

Rica Oslo Hotel - close to the Oslo center, near by greatest shopping place, walking distance from every gay club. Big rooms and even bigger beds. Next time again. 

*Best coctail

Apple Martini (Butterfly) - great team, best coctail place in Tallinn. Owners are the most fun part of this lounge.. Gifted and awarded with several trophies in this industry. And Butterfly has very big glasses. 

*Wildest ride moment

having a tattoo - I had an obsession about tattoo. I did it. I am happy, but never again. I knew that it closed some doors, but same time opened lots of windows.  Its like a scar - with me forever. Sad part is that 5 weeks later I saw 95% identical tattoo in town where I live...

*Norway moment 

My "32" birthday - that was amazing party. So many friends showed up. And disco lasted until morning. Kind words, good food, shots, coctails, proesecco... And no hangover next day. Well spend Sunday evening.. And the gift from friends -  I can fly now to New York (at least 1 way )

*Smart award

Joan Rivers «I hate everyone.....»  - she is so funny.. Laughing until crying. every chapter is just to die for. Bought more books from her.

 

*Best disco song

Carly Rae Jepsen «Call me maybe» - A funny song, a love song. But as we all know the grande final decides is the "whole thing"  good. One of the biggest hits this year and a gay ending. And lets be honest, the boy is  a good catch.... So here is my number (+372)*******...... And people just get happy when this song plays...

*New Obsession 

Football - I was bored, men were talking that there was something good going on. I needed to see. And so it started. But you all know that the last 30 - 90 sec after the game is the best part, when they take shirts off... So, game is never over before the happy ending. I always go sleep with a smile. And I have a great group of friends I can talk to about football and we have our bets who wins and who not. And the price is also good... We playing while we watching the game

 

*A celebrity crush

Matt Bomer - "White Collar"... Just great tv show. He is so talented. Haven´t seen Magic Mike but he has a sexy body. And he is gay !!!

 

MOMENT OF THE YEAR

After 30 years I met first time my brother who lives in USA.  I can´t describe it but it was one the most memorable moment in my life.

2013 is not far and it looks like it will be amazing !

 

Born 1980 part 2

In part 1 I wrote my biggest high-lights in my Wanna-be Star life... And it looks like 1980 was a good year... Lots of other famous people belong in the same "So-called" box as well...

 //Box meaning... sometimes when you do the Cosmopolitan test you have to mark your age in a box... In the begining its fun [11 - 17], then comes amazing [18 - 25], then with a deep exhale [25 - 34] and then [35 - 50] and the happy ending is [51 - .....] The older you get the bigger is the age difference, so that we could feel great..... Yeahhh, I am still in 25 - 34 box //

Some of the great celebreties and their highs and lows, I share the year.
* Swedish model Elin Nordegren - no raports about her fashion work.. Famous for getting 100 million from man with balls - Tiger Wood

  * Pauly D - according to rumors his penis is pierced... I think it was on season 1 when some girl said it... But he looks hot and has the biggest brain in the show. And he loves good dance music...
* Jason Segel - a man who still is looking someone´s mother and if this doesn´t help just goes totally naked... Great talent
* Jenson Button - cars ? sport ?
* Nick Carter - should I even start or you will just throw your undies towards him
* Venus Williams -  I like tennis by men.. But as she loves to be in the center of the spotlight, just look what she wears when se plays... No surprise that the judges are blind and let her win... But she plays well...Just google her award money

 * Kim Kardashian - I took a while to understand who is that Wanna-Be competition in my life... But I actually like her... But she gets too much s**t from the world.. Poor you... Just marry the right guy and stop.. Or became a lesbian - it work for Ellen and Portia !
* Eva Green - if she had screen sex with Daniel Craig and Johnny Depp, then she must be good
* Kristen Bell - the sound of Gossip Girl - xoxo...
* Gisele Bündchen - people love her, I just like her... I prefer our Estonian beauties

 * Christina Aquilera - Dirrrrrty... I have been her as a drag.. And you would love to hear what ms. Joan Rivers has to say about her


THE HOT LIST
Same year with the amazing bodies ( of course talent too )

Ryan Gosling
Channing Tatum
Chris Pine
Jake Gyllenhaal
John Terry
T.I
Randy Orton ( just for his body)
Marat Safin





So 1980 has been great years for stars.. The list is even bigger, just my caje is waiting and I need my sweet sweet love.. from cake
 

Born 1980 part 1

I am not timeless beauty, but time has taken me another milestone in life. Yes, its my birthday... And I am 32... Ohhh, that was hard to say it out... ( actually, it wasn´t).. I can´t wait when I am 40 -  I am more than intriqued to see from the mirror  how much I have lost hair and how much I have gained weight... On that point not gonna think where I will be in that point... I think that I have achieved a lot during my 31 soon 32 years...  So here it comes (I am not going to start when I was a baby... I start when the FAME kicked in and sadly never left again)

The EGO BOOST
*I have done 2 reality shows..
"Baar" and "Buss"... And since then I have my fabulous Star name "Baari-Madis". In Buss I was just a small wanna-be celebrity kick to turn the tables and mess the crowd... And thanks to Baar I am who I am today... (of course it all starts at home, but still the show was great starting point in my Wanna Be world)
**And here is our song by Paavo and Liis

*My own show
When I used to work in gayclub Angel, me and my BFF (not fighting with him like these other girls do with their besties) we started a drag show what growed one the best and craziest shows during 5 years on stage in Angel.. We had lots of celebreties involved and show was always unique... People loved us.. My dear Tutti Frutti.. Thanks to Absolut Vodka and Leaf for the supporting it !!
**Stars on stage

*Being part of 2 movies
"Jan Uuspõld läheb Tartusse" ja "Reality Star"... Both were amazing experinces... And just to be in the same movie with Estonian President and other most talented actors and actresses in Estonia and Hollywood bad-boy Eric Roberts
**  3.. 2.. 1.. -action - Here it is the small clip from the movie

*Mr.Gay from 2009 - 2011
I think that has been most shocking thing I have ever done in my life.. I used to laugh about competitions like this until I entered Mr.Gay Norway 2009... Made it top 10 and then already came Mr.Gay Europe 2009 - where I was top 12 finalist and won the Challenge Award as the best Viking.. And then was Mr.Gay Baltics 2010. And on my final year I did Mr.Gay World and got the titel Mr.Congeniality.... Since then I have tried to produce Mr.Gay Eesti - with small baby steps my dream will reach its goal.
**And the the titel goes

And of course many several tv and radio guest spots... Made it to magazine (even covers).. Love red carpet. Maybe being even a role model ??? Had scandals, had great moments... But this is what fame does :)

But the journey still continues...

WANNA-BE AWARDS 2012

Its November and 2012 is almost over... It went faster than any Twilight movie... A lot has happened during this time. Now its time to award all the great high-lights... And as I am a true wanna-be and just a sucker for award ceremonies then I will do it the same way. 

So here are the nominees for my Wanna-Be Life awards 2012

*Most memorable vacation trip

1. New York
2. Amsterdam
3. Helsinki
   
   

*Best celebrity moment

1. Landon Conrad
2. Carmen Kass
3. Lady Bunny and Amanda Lepore

*Best red carpet moment

1. Tallinn Dolls fashion show
2. Rebecca Kontus album party
3. Pohjanheimo Resort fashion show

*Best disco

1. XL Club (New York)
2. Underwear party (Amsterdam)
3. Raballder Cup after-party (Oslo)

*Good pillow

1. Amistad Hotel (Amsterdam)
2. Rica Oslo Hotel (Oslo)
3. Colonial House Inn (New York)

*Best coctail

1. Apple Martini (Komeet)
2. Apple Martini (Butterfly)

*Wildest ride moment

1. Liseberg Free-fall Tower (Gothenburg)
2. SAS business flight New York – Oslo
3. having a tattoo

*Norway moment

1. My 32 birthday
2. Therese 50´s theme  party
3. Carslberg staff party (Denmark)

*Smart award

1. Joan Rivers «I hate everyone.....»
2. E.L James «50 shades of grey»
3. Andrus Kivirähk «Mees, kes teadis ussisõnu»

*Best disco song

1. Ne-Yo «Let me love you»
2. Otto Knows «Million voices»
3. Carly Rae Jepsen «Call me maybe»

*New Obsession

1. Football
2. TV show «Revenge»
3. AussieBum underwear

*A celebrity crush

1. Matt Bomer
2. Ryan Gosling
3. Joshua Bowman

 

And the winners will be announced in December in my next blog chapter... And it includes all the comments

My so called star-dust

That´s it. Now its officially confirmed – I will never be a leading man in a movie or a tv show. All what I have left is just a supporting role or a funny side-kick... (and I even haven´t went to any castings yet or slept with non-important staff member in some production ).... I hear a confused gasp in my readers mind - what is going on ? Is this really the end ???

 

As I love a dramatic moment, I take my pillow and fall in to my bed and start crying... Why, oh why I did it...

                                                      I HAVE A TATTOO 

I am very happy to have it, I really am... But if I am truly honest (not like miss Lohan – it was not me who drove the car) my true confession is – I regret that I made a tattoo but I am happy to have it.... I know, its confusing – its like ms. Stewart suppose to be real actress and not a teen idol...

 

But if I look towards my colleagues in Hollywood or even in BBC – no one has a tattoo in public place. Except the crazy HBO or Fox tv shows... All actors and actresses are clean as sky ( not in a drug way ).. Miss Pitt has, but she always plays killers and f****d up roles what needs body art...

I dont know why, but it looks like that owning a tattoo puts entertainers into so called Bad Boy role... All modern heroes are nice, without piercing or a stupid habit... I think its wrong msg (oh, so cool, used short term for message, to save some more space to my idiotic thoughts). Not all people with tattoos are bad or criminals... Some are talented and good... Just take ME... So, dear industry, what I truly love and obsess about 24/7 – we all have equal chances to play in a leading role – with or without tattoo...

(No more time to type – I need practice my Hamlet and then 3 lines for a toothpaste commercial where I am just a sidekick ) 

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But dear reader(s) - please think very carefully if you start planning to have a tattoo !!! If you are not rich, then the tattoo stays forever with you !!!

My book "50......."

Just a month ago I premiered my "big blockbuster" wanna-be movie ending with this amazing cast... Hoping for the sequal and lots of important awards like MTV Movie & Teen Choice Awards...

Now, 1 month later I have a book coming out as well. And again being inspired by other people and their stories. I just hope I will end up at Oprah´s book club selection next to ms. Kathy Griffin...  And it looks like from E. L James who has middle-life crises and no sex available, I also put my horny thoughts on the paper cos I can´t make it anymore in real life

So here it is - my book
"50 sizes of dick" -  a erotic novel about me and fictional fantasy man called Richard Hard

SUMMARY
Me - young and fabulous 23 year old cute guy from small town gets lost in big city. With lots of temptations and lies to get me into bed I stay true to my path... Enjoy life with friends and find a true love and nothing else...  With a simple job being a sexy barman in gayclub I meet lots of handsome men every weekend who make undecent proposals to me.  I never have sex with customers until one day I met Richard Hard.

Richard - 35 year old divorced man. A little bit over-weight (like 3 kilos), works as a bus driver on line nr 22 with a problem of a hair-loss who lives close to town border upstairs of his parents house..

STORY
We met in the bus when a ticket control wanted to kick me out from the bus cos I didn´t had a ticket. But Richard helped me out with a lie that he actually forgot to give me when I paid for it. I just gave him a smile and continued to talk to my friend about another episode Bold and Beautiful... My home was final stop... But Richard didn´t want to let me out.. I was nervous... He came closer to me with his oily smelled t-shirt and cheap HM jeans and asked me out... I agreed cos he saved my life... No one ever has paid so much for me - it was like 2 dollars
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We started to date. I always waited for him next to bus garage. We had a beer and the leftovers from his lunch what his mother made... He never took me home to his place and when I ever texted all called him, he called me Jessie ( a girl version from my real Jess name). I actually liked being with him... I had lots of wet dreams about him. Once even had to change my underwear at work cos I was way too excited...( and we had underwear party theme in the club, customers were happy but confused).... Everything was okay, until one day...........
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Richard as I called him Dick asked if I want to have sex.... I said yes... But the deal was that he wanted to film it... He even came contract to sign...
1) I had to shave all my hair on my body...
2) Always being a bottom
3) Never use real names and fake orgasm
4) To be ready for everything, even if other bus-drivers wanted to join
5) Safe sex always
6) and more

I never knew what that "and more" was.... It took like minutes to think about it. I signed it... And we started to have sex... Hot steamy wild rough kind love making.... It lasted everytime almost like 8 - 9 minutes.... Everytime I was so happy...

But it all ended when I said that I love him. I never met him again. I waited like 3 days in the garage but nothing. He changed the buses and had a new route at work...My heart was broken like Paris Hilton´s music career and I had to leave the town....

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And as every reader knows that everything what I do always have more to come. And as I already know in my empty head that "50 sizes of dick" going to be a huge hit I will write two books more

So please wait for my next books

"50 corners of Sauna"
"50 itches of crabs"

My Blockbuster Movie

We all know how all started, we all know what is going on now in present, but we don´t know how it ends....

But I do !!!!
**this is my shortened version of my movie crdeits

 

And I think there will be a sequal

"El amor y la pasión fatal" episode 3781

In last episode....

* lots of drama went down
* there was 3 breaks for commercials
* a sidekick was topless
* and lots of almost bad acting
* Maria, Juan, Lupita, Carlos, Rudolfo & Carmelita....

After every episode of something from TV3 or Kanal 2 (free commercial for them) I think - "why, why , why.... it is not real and way too much drama". I actually have to admit I love good drama, what is more believable like in "Real Housewives in Beverly Hills" or in my wanna-be life while I am on my holiday.... But surprisngly our lives are very close to soap-opera.. The writers get inspiration from real life of course and earn so much cash what to blow up to their nose later in their new kitchen table...

And honestly - my life have had twists and turns also... Fallen love, fight, prison, drama, tears, laugh, cute doctors, crazy side-kicks, hospital... Uhhh, enough material at least to have a movie made for Lifetime (I need bigger audience, my movie wont work in Estonia... So going to USA market with that)

So this story is real (just shortned version)

After several years living with my mom and seeing my dad, (I have seen Santa-Clause more than dad) I knew that there is no more relatives (read step-brothers or sisters) from my dad side... But after losing my grandparents from my mom side and being inspired by these over dramatic and emotional TV shows "Find my family" I decided to discover everyone from my dad´s side...

PART 1
After 29 years I met first time with my grandmother. And the crazy part is that all this time we both lived in the same time... (actually I left my home town when i was 18 for bigger things, but still I call this town my real home).. We had our moments, we are still in connection....

PART 2
There was rumor and people were telling me that I have a brother from my dad´s side... Never took it seriously, but after bottle of vodka with dad in Christmas Eve the hard truth hit me again... This time I decided not to give up... I found out his name and then I googled, I facebooked, I did research but nothing... I couldn´t find him. (I felt lost like Lindsay Lohan in a liqure store - dont know where to go or what to do, cos the buzz was dying ) And it dies eventually... But one nice cold day I got the request in Facebook... And there he was, my step-brother... I was really really shocked and surprised.. After 31 years
At the beginning it was weird and the connection between us was awkward. we did everything step by step, despite the feeling -"that why should we bound now when we have lived without each-other before" -in the beginning, everything came to real after all this time... Time went by and things changed for better...And after months we actually met in Denver.

I have a new brother. So I am happy. And the best part is that this connection stays !

Life is like soap-opera. Every day is like a new episode... Then my soap have been on the air almost 11650 episodes... And I am the hero in that story !!!

STAR WANNABE vol. 2

I dont have great line to say out loud like Arnie has - "I will be back" or something even tackier. All I can say is - "Here I am again"

My last post was on 7th August... I even dont remember what it was about... Since then I have been on holiday. Ok, I was 4 weeks on holiday and then just came fashion week time from New York to Paris...I was updating my fashion knowledge. And it was fabulous...
I would love to write more but Revenge season 2 starts and I have to see that... So I will do it shortly ( I think that at least 50% movies in land called Hollywood should do the same - cut the movies shorter than they are.... Wait, we have trailers... So usually all good stuff is there and you have seen the movie )

Me as the biggest (not in the size) and brightest Star Wannabe, I spend my vacation in New York..

Here is the small recap from last season (fine, its just a recap from my vacay...) But other my adventures and stories are available in my blog... So before you kill yourself for boredom, give a last chance for yourself and read it.... (hoping to get more new readers)

So here it is in pics (pics are not actually from the trip but people who I met are).. The most glamourus way as possible... I keep the boring stuff for my parents and friends I drink with

***Shopping on 5th Avenue: Armani Exchange, Saks, Abercrombie & Fitch and so on... And made pics in front of Gucci, Prada, Louis Vuitton, Salvatore Ferragamo and so on... Michael Kors also...

*** Had dinner with amazingly glamorous people.. And I know them personally, Their so amazing role-models and fun people to hang out.... Let the pics do the talking

*** Had a kiss and even more from my favorite porn-star. The Charming mister is... (just look at him...) Couldn´t resist. Put 3 pics... And memories what last forever and a 2 gifts... Interested to know... Ask me out, buy me a dinner and I will tell you after 2 bottles of Chablis (what you pay for later)

*** on the night out, what was filled with cute guys, great drinks, amazingly my new favorite gayclub XL... There was a dj playing.. And who was the dj... almost like dream come true... MISS

*** The trip was full great moments, lots of fun, good food and drinks, tears and laughs from Chelsea to Central Park, from all the gay bars to my hotel room, from the streets to corners in toilet area.... I miss my New York

But its already decided. I am going back !!!

But there is more... "Very dramatic very soap-opera moment..."
And all this in next episode (fine, next time I feel like writing)

Beautiful sidekick

I am the STAR in my life.. Even if the movies, books, tv shows or just a reality will be made based my life I will be casted as a star. I dont need no-one to play me or be me.... But as every good movie or a good/bad tv show there are always some amazingly good-looking hot sidekicks... They dont maybe have much air-time but when they are there, its action time...

And as long as I dont have my show or sexy sidekicks I list some of my favorite eye-candies...

SHAWN PYFROM
You all know him from Desperate Housewife.
I dont know if they showed him topless but just being a messed up gay-kid who always brought some drama. Love it

CHORD OVERSTREET
Gleek from Glee. His lips and his sexy body when he was wearing yellow-golden pants. And he is little bit confusing and a little bit gay(ish)

DAVID SUTCLIFFE
A sexy dad to hunky officer. He has something I can´t describe but always attracks. If I know the answer I will let you know

SEBASTIAN STAN
Bad boy try to be good - but bad is always better. And that´s why it was always so messy on Upper East Side when his character entered the Gossip Girl. And it looks like his career is taking off, played in some movies even I liked... Hope for more sexiness

STEPHEN GUARINO
Happy Endings. Draaaaaaaaaaaaaaamaaaaaaaaaaaaa !!! Love love love... Forever :)

Casting for my wanna-be no-excisiting movie starts now... No sexual favors for getting a part.. This is real... Who wants to be sidekick and not a star

2 years

There was nothing on TV, I have seen all the Kardashian family adventures on Discovery WildLife Channel, and everything else in replay.... And its not Monday, so I could watch Dallas 2.0...

Don´t feel writing much. Just the house-music is so good and dont want to close it for the bed. So I had to come up with something... So I decided to make a "The Most & Best" list... If I say it out normal way - I was curios to see how popular my blog is and what is most read...

And it was surprise...

Nr.1
***Is it a joke - Apr 1, 2012 - 1791 hits***
It was my way back to blogging when I found out that my friends read my blog... But I used very big names in this blog... Of course... everyone googled Rihanna and ended up here... As long as the noticed me :)

Nr. 2
***Mr.Gay World 2012 - Apr 10, 2012 - 338 hits***
Totally understandable. It was good event and we have a new amazing role-model to look up. Ah, good time for advertise - Mr.Gay Europe 2012 in Rome in August. Stay tuned

Nr.3
***A true fairytale - Feb 3, 2012 - 162 hits***
Who doesn´t love a happy ending or a Hollywood KateHudsKatHeigl movie life. We all do. But less women in my version

Nr.4
***Dear Secret Diary - Apr 3, 2012 - 158***
Again got confused with Vampire Diaries. But this TV show is also about cute guys, "meaningful" points about life and love and sort of good music... My diary is also like that.

Nr.5
***Unustatud star - Dec 21, 2010 - 115***
I was surprised that my native language blog entarnce made it to this top 5. But we all start from somewhere... Maybe some other wanna-bes were looking for motivation

So I will continue writing. Not regulary... I do have a life :)
Thank you to my all readers (16th July 2010 - 19th July 2012 - total 4697)

Underwear

3.00 o´clock at Friday night. I have just finished my 5th Apple Martini (but I was cheap and had some Martini Asti at home as an excuse - I drank champagne tonight ) and almost everyone in club looks already handsome... My drunk eyes stops on guy.. From 1 to 10 (remember I have had 5 apple martinis + this bubbly what people in public transport call champagne) he is a good 7... Ahh, I am too shy...

"Barman, I need 2 shots"... Damn, already have to use my credit card, cos I have to keep my last 5 euros for taxi... So now its already 3.45, I have done some desperate moves from guys level 10 and got rejected like miss Lohan from Hollywood... Ahh, I walk home - another shot... So, 6 min later, my 7 is a good 8 and he smiles to me....Gay panic.... Quickly to toilet, shit - I just look like Gaga without make-up... This 7slash8 guy says:"hi"... In my mind already I see us in couple counseling and choosing a baby name in Thai restaurant...

After some Madonna, Rihanna, Eurovision songs and 4.75 eur ride with taxi and crap food. We land at my place.. I use the night light.. I try to keep him in my home as much as possible, cos anyway he will sneak out next morning when I have become a MISTAKE to him.

****Everyone under 18, please stop here****

After several seconds...So only what to take off is these cheap jeans... Belt is off, a little bit kissing and giggling, zipper, more kissing... Jeans are off. OMG - the ugliest underwear ever.. Even the shots wont help...A fast excuse - I dont have a condom and mom comes in the morning... My 7slash8-5 apple martinis-3 shots guy goes...

(reading for everyone again)
Next morning
After Fanta and pizza (not sponosored statments) I feel better, but not my credit card.. I go to my closet (where I came out 8 years ago during the Kelis Milkshake song) I started to look what kind of underwear I have and also can admit in public.... Not much, I have still some pair since my mom bought me clothes.... So like 15 years ago... Am I still same size (size doesnt matter)? OMG... Does it means no dating anymore or just sex in the dark or in sauna (ahhh, too much adult talking... 18+ only again).. Where I can wear and what...?

Inspection starts (its my personal opinion - you can´t sue me for that)
Any of the items on photos aren´t really mine !!! REALLY NOT !!!
1.Admit level - I need a 7 tequila shot and black out for admiting this - I have 4 pairs of classical tightie-whities ( in my case weird color)

result - * During the work days in case I dont go gym and noone ever sees me, I can pull this off - it hurts so much to say it out... Please no need to judge !!! Begging


2.Admit level - people may laugh over this, but still 1 tequila helps - I have 3 pairs of classical boxers.

result - * During the work and then at home, when I am alone and single (so it means rest of my life)


3.Admit level - Yes, I did it.. It was purely work.. Damn, glass of Chablis, please, 1 pair of thongs

result - * I am victim of my vanity and I used to be a wanna-be dancer in my shows. Needed to create a fantasy for men.. about nudity under my costumes


4.Admit level - I can even show the check, that I bought them myself. 2 pairs of long johns

result - *its cold during the winter. I have to protect my precious... And once in a year I go to ski and it keeps me warm

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Hangover kicks in... But I am not done.. A shower and another slice of pizza.. And now I am even able to drink cider...
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And finally after lots of shocking moments in my closet, I decided to get rid off some shameful moments from my past.. Some of the underwears have to go. In the same trash bag is also this guy´s number what he wrote. But I knew there is something waiting for me...

The final
Admit Level - I am proud to have it. And even to show it (in Amsterdam underwear party) - I have a lot of it

result - *My Aussie Bum :)- I love the quality and how sexy these are... It almost makes me feel attractive. I can wear them everywhere and not feel bad. Love it !!!!

result - *and my Bonewear swimwear from MGW.. I have exactly same pants like on the pic.. So low cut... Lots of space for fantasies and a lots of work for man-scaping. Very gay !!! (Its not me on the pic...)


So, no more hangover...There is still hope for more dates (in my case never more than 1 with same guy)... Again shower, man-scaped, gel in the hair, my fake Armani t-shirt from Asia and HM jeans - another disco night is waiting for me... And to avoid akward moments I use my Aussie tonight as my mental supporting friend I can lean on...

And its true - its important how you look inside (translate - good and sexy underwear), and not outside !!!

Paris vs Milan

fashion week S/S 2013

Until the straight men watched football and their wives were crying eyes out in the kitchen because they missed another episode of "Bold and the Beautiful" for soccer, all the glammy shiny people and fashionistas were watching men and judged also (only clothes actually - but I think there were some men who watched that fashion a little bit differently)

*If I have straight readers then Spain is Euro 2012 Soccer champion and won over Italy with huge 4-0 score.. Game was sort of okay..*

But in the same time Italy kicked ass over France during the fashion week... Its a personal opinion - so I am so allowed to say it and be fierce in the same time.. After several hours watching the shows (no need to be jealous, just based on style.com and Tim Blanks) I am ready to bring out my best of the best the way I see it... But maybe one day I make it there... As Burberry shiny pink coat says.... literally - THINK PINK

***WHITE WEDDING***
I always dreamed that I will walk the straight line (not with police help or in the queue of gay club) towards my future.. I used to think it will be in Vera Wang or some another unique dress from Walmart. But now I have made my mind after looking around.. I love the white and outfits just looks amazing, so I am ready to say "I DO or I love you(r money)" I dont have so many fabulous words as the true editors have when they see something they like...

***BOYS BOYS BOYS***
as I said before or like Boobzilla Sabrina sings "boys boys boys", some people watched show with a little twist... I also had a twist.. A gay one... Every season I look around and obsess about great bodies, and if little bit fashion comes with that, fine by me... But less is more and always has been... So even if I dont have amazing six pack as accessory, I could work just clothes (at least I hope I could do it). Summer will be sexy next year...

***ALL TIED UP***
bondage, ties, leather, skin, bodies or anything else what makes as feel .....5 > 4 > 3 > 2 > 1... Let the unraited adult movie starts or a fetish theme party somewhere in Berlin or in Amsterdam....So boys, choose your outfit from the best (maybe they find the inspiration for the outfits also from these clubs)

***NO COMMENTS***
Some designers think outside of the box and sometimes this line is way too far... (so far that from the distance people may think I look beautiful). But every time during the moda-week, fashion houses cross it... I dont know when to wear these outfits but I they have been created there has to be reason to wear them (maybe even only at home)... From bobby-soxs to washing-powder.... from flower-silk to lamp-covers... I actually think (and hope) that they have very meaningful value and purpose

So where and when to wear this ??

***SIMPLY THE BEST***

A true creme de la creme walk the runways during the fashion week...

and among them Estonian sensation Sander Kink


MY WISHLIST
I want these TOPMAN shoes... Just want. I even dont know how to wear it.. Wanna !!!!

Everything from Balmain collection. It was amazing. Truly loved it. And as being cheap, there are actually ways to copy ideas in cheaper way. Mind-blowing collection

Who is that model ? He looked HOT in every item he wore in every show he walked. Obsession may start. Here he is in Pringle of Scotland

So here you have something or about someone to think about
Until next season.