Lets make it clear !

"If I could turn back time".... No, its not going to be about Cher, (So please, dont snap on me and judge), but a small travelling back in time will happen (not "Back in the Future" style with weird car but great story-line, more like nostalgic way) for clearing the air.... But still lets enjoy Cher for moment... Believe, Strong Enough, Just like Jesse James and so on.....

Back to my non-important wanna-be point :
Some boys know in early their teenage that there is something different (not in a bad way) in the shower room after football training - that even after chacing the ball for 90.min, the ball-chase is not over.

Or in 1991 when Mark Wahlberg posed for Calvin Klein.... (damn, he is hot there) it was confusing time, cos I didn´t know what was there what I liked, but I had a happy smile on my face, when I saw it.....and after other many "accidents" like this i knew it at one point that I was gay.

But now on modern days, when people are obsessed about everything and men are more confusing then ever ( metrosexuality - what the hell is that - Gay men who can´t get laid by men ? straight guy who looks like a gay ? or men who wear women clothes ) and ladies - I wont even start... So people don´t know and can´t figure out who is who in this colorful world...
I have all the gay dna ( go back in some months and read my thoughts about it ), but the world has gone crazy..........why ??? Because of this....

Pre-story ( so the answer is more excaiting, like the same way you wait the results on Idol show) On the moment I came out, I knew that it will be men only, there won´t be any Metallica music ( maybe lyrics ), car oil or beer-drinking and all the dreams and expectations must be higher than anything, so I can´t reach them and dancing, modelling, singing and fashion is my life... So gay gay gay gay.... I even can´t walk out from the building, when the first person sees me and think "Queer"...

the point:
**I was in Ireland and this cute guy I liked, didn´t want to flirt with me and was surprised that I talked to him and show some interest... He thought I was straight. OMG. I was in the gayclub dancing while George Michael "Outside" song and had my fabulous disco moves... what is gayer that that... ( maybe sir E.John Christmas tree)
** and then it happened again. We were drinking and warm-uping for some random boring disco party with beer and ouzo (the Greek drink), when some totally random girls walked in and started to like me and then thought I was straight.... Ain´t no bar big enough to have so much alcohol, so I could finish up with the girl...

No hard feeling, but men only..

Star - Look at me

Haven´t blog again for some time.
My 2 readers are already tired to wait and they started to read Barbara Cartland books... So to win them back I will do something...

A first and final look on me...., selfish - of course :)

Like Absolut Vodka, what tastes always good and has many way to express itself by taste and branding, the same way I can look myself....

NOT a star, but lots of different ways to express...

I did Tutti Frutti for 5 years ( produced, promoted and performed - OMG P3, its like this Charmed show.... so cool ) Here are some my best of ....

TF:"Candyshop" - AQUA "Barbie Girl"

TF:"Ladies Night" - Baccara

TF:"La Cage aux Folles" - Cabaret/Liza Minelli

TF:1.Birthday - Christina Aquilera

TF:"La Cage aux Folles" - Sandy Olsen

TF:"Candyshop" - Joel steinfeldt

TF:"Rannalõvi" - Hairspray Penny Pingleton

TF:"Divas" - Lady Marmelade

TF:3.Birthday - just a dancer

TF:"Men at work" - Full Monty

God of Tutti Frutti - ME :)

If you still haven´t realized what TF is, then stick to CSI.

Another fashion moment - Paolo

I am not fashion-blogger. Its the season again
All the magazines and web-pages are full of it, so I will take my fun out of it.

Some bloggers are crazy about dots and stripes. I think most of the ladies go down ( don´t think dirty here) with their eyes and check out all the shoes... I have a small obsession here as well. Some rich bankers just look for fresh meet for their yaht...in the end we all love fashion in some way....

My new thing....
Its a man. I think he is a beautiful man.
We haven´t met yet and never will. I can see him and he´s not. I am not a stalker, just obsessed

His name is Paolo Roldan and he is from Philippines ( he is not my first guy from that country )
Just look at him... Would we be perfect mismatch couple ?

I hope he will do great things in fashion. So far its has been amazing to see what he is doing.

Go, Paolo

J´adore a body

Its still January but the hard six-pack summer beach-lion training season has started.
Only for 4 months its time to take shirt off and show what we got (doesn´t apply to all - sorry).... Just an idea that the competition goes harder every summer on the beach, club or sauna - drives me towards gym. But in the same time eye-candies are always good. (Oh, dirty thinking !)

But thanks to (role)models we have a target where we all want to finish as fast as possible ( do not use that phrase in bed or kitchen table or where ever you like it- if you know what I mean). After 15.min searching spring/summer 2012 campaigns....

**SIDE-KICK - I am not another fashion blogger who says that this is in and this is out ( uuh, thats sounds like a bed-talk or something what Heidi says). I just looked around beautiful things and just point them out. We are allowed for beautiful things. Example some horny guys have in Facebook "Hottie of the day", or these guys who even drink gas - "My dream Car"... the best are classical long-marriage straight guys who are tired from their wives - "My wife with photoshopped body" and so on...

So here are some eye-candy motivations. If I have to be honest then David B in his undearwear campaign for H&M isn´t perfect but still makes my dreams worth.

Calvin Klein Jeans

David B for H&M

Dolce & Gabbana The One Sport Fragrance

Versace

Dsquared2

Maybe these guys are not 100% perfect, but still they gives us reasons enough for this summer

But remember !!! it doesn´t matter how we look like. It´s all about inside beauty. we are the way we are, as long as it makes us happy

Forget STAR, now just Wanna-Be

I even don´t know what to say.

I broke up my relationship with my potenial future-ex-boyfriend. He let me down (and not in the good way). If you wanna know who was that man, then it was God. Sounds stupid, but I had lots of faith in him and I believed that he can do some magic... at begining it worked but end result just wasn´t good enough for me.

2011 was very good year for me, I won´t deny that. Traveled a lot, met lots of fabulous people, started to do charity, personal life was full of adventures and even my star-wanna-be status get a boost from Mr.Gay World (and everything to attached to gay-competitions) and from Sufleé.

At the begining it was all good - I was all over Õhtuleht and Kroonika and so on about MGW. TV3 and also cared too - they sort of put on screen for at least 1.min. But it looked like from that moment - it went all down. This fashion blogger (who even barely knew history of Burberry) didn´t knew anything about history of Estonian beautiful people (yes, I go under fashion and beauty - not because of my crapy getting old looks, just beacuase of beauty pageant) and they lost their money.

And on EA not-so-interesting-warderobe B-Day party (what got interesting on Horizont lounge after 23.00) there was man with a camera, who waited when I step away so he could make a pic about my plus 1. But that not so professional man found me and took a pic while I was cruiseing men with a wine glass and look liked Charlie Sheen in his home-made-angry-audition video.

And then when it was time to count best of the best - I wasn´t there. OMG. All other events where there, but not me.When I did Mr.Gay Europe I was all over in the best of the best.... Wasn´t my performance worth of mentioning at all in any media... It´s God fault.

But lets see good in people. It was amazing 2011 and thanks to all who made it so special for me. STAR or NO-STAR (damn, it was hard to write that last word), I proud what I have done, but now I just will stay wanna-be. I will swallow my pride with rest of the bitter stuff and enjoy what is left....

Will I be back ? Lets see.

Happy New Year